Monday, August 22, 2005

 

I'm old. And I need a nap...

So my 27th birthday has come and gone. I've felt kinda blah about it, but not so much because it's another year older. I've just been so stressed lately about boards and residency stuff that I just didn't feel much like celebrating. Saturday, Dan took me out to Mon Ami Gabi for lunch. He even wore a button-down shirt with a collar! I'm still amazed! Then we went with the herd over to watch the Windy City Thunderbolts in Crestwood. I was the dork who studied during the game (cut me some slack, my test is Thursday). There were fireworks afterward, so that was very cool - they did a very good job with them. Sunday, after brunch at Panera, Dan headed off to Vermont for yet another business jaunt. So the cousins were due to come out for my birthday, and since T was in the hospital possibly in labor, we figured we'd just do it at our house in case the little guy decided to be my birthday buddy. At any rate, by the time 4pm rolled around, I just about didn't want to do anything any more. I just felt blah. Oh well. I guess the whole not wanting to do anything crept on me when I was by myself, when I could think about all the studying I still need to do, all the things I have to do, all this crap with applying, etc. But as usual, once the cousins all got to my house, it was all laughs and good times. I love those knuckleheads.

Thanks to everyone for their birthday wishes!

Oh, and T didn't end up in actual labor. So I'm still in the baby pool. Come on, 8/28!!!

Claud 11:04 AM 

Friday, August 19, 2005

 

Yes, I'm still alive, but it's not as fun as it used to be...

Howdy. Yes, I'm still here. Just taking a study break.

I've been super-busy with "I want to be a doctor" stuff. I'm currently doing my application for emergency medicine residencies and studying for the multitude of board exams that I have coming up. By my last count, by the time 2006 rolls around, I'll have taken 4 exams and spent $2500 on said exams, not counting the airfare/hotel I'll be purchasing for the test in Philly. Good times, good times.

I already had my "I don't want to do this any more" breaking point the other night. I'll probably have another one or two before this year is over. Especially before I take the MD step 1 board exam. Because I haven't studied that stuff in over a year. I'm still kicking myself in the head for not taking it last year, but then again last year I wanted to go into Family Practice or Internal Medicine and figured the DO boards would suffice.

Plus, this applying for residencies business has me all up in a tizzy. I desperately want to stay in Chicago (there's some darn good EM residencies here), but that would likely require at least doing decently, if not fabulously, on the MD boards. As much as I like my school, we didn't get a huge amount in the way of guidance for filling out all of this stuff, what we need to apply for, what paperwork is involved, or who to talk to about it. I just feel lost and confused and anxious. And if you ask Dan, that's not a good combination for me. Because then he has a crying fiancee on the phone. I've talked to a couple of my comrades, and I'm just glad I'm not the only one who feels lost. Phew.

Oy vey.

Back to studying I go.

Claud 4:16 PM 

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

 

calgon, take me away...

Why oh why oh why do I procrastinate?

Oh yeah, I forgot. It's because I fear the unknown.

I am going to get sooooo hammered on Match Day. Let's just hope it's happy hammered.

Claud 9:13 PM